Friday, June 3, 2011

Tearful

Today is one of those days when the tears are just under the surface, falling so easily.  One of those days when I have to look through all of Harper's pictures and cry for her, wondering how this happened to us and where it all went wrong.  I am sad.  It is June.  How is it June already?  Has it really been almost a year?  I wish she were here.  I wonder what she would be doing had she lived.  I wonder what her giggle would sound like, what her smile would look like, and what her arms would feel like around my neck.  I wonder what we would be planning for her first birthday.  I wonder if people will remember her birthday.  I am scared that they won't.

10 comments:

Jennifer said...

If other people forget, we, here in this community, will remember with you. Always. (((hugs)))

Dana said...

I think more people remember than we think. I didn't mention it a whole lot to my family, but they remembered. And, like Jennifer said, we in the baby loss community will always remember.

I hope the day starts to get easier. A sign from her today would be just perfect.

Natasha said...

So so very sorry your precious Harper isn't here with you......it's just so unfair.

We'll all definitely help you remember her birthday.

Sending lots of hugs
xoxo

Caroline said...

Merr. I had a bit of a sad day today too. Just crazy (annoying) how it comes in waves and when you aren't expecting it. I will always remember Harpers birthday (yours, Chris' - eghh, that'll take time :) I wish she was here too. I wish I got to know her.

butterflymom said...

My dear friend...I'm thinking about you so much and your sweet girl. You are such a beautiful person...and strong mama. Harper is proud of you and glad that you were the one chosen to be her mother. She knows you will find a way to remember her...and help others if need be. She will not be forgotten. Hope that helps your heart a little bit. ((Hugs)0

Olivia's Mom said...

There is SO much love for that sweet little girl. We will definitely be remembering her birthday with you! Lots of love to you!

Brooke said...

I was having a day of crying today as I was driving. Then i was crying because I was so happy to find out about baby Sam. It is so hard not to wish about all the what-if's. I'm so sorry that Harper isn't here. I sure wish I could have known her...and could still know her now.

Drew's Parents said...

I will always remember Harper and hold her close. She and the other angels I have come to know will always be a part of our family. As your milestone weeks approach and as Harper's birthday nears, I will be sending you extra strong prayers and thoughts. Much love to you and your girls! <3

Melissa said...

I had a moment like that last week too, where I just sat in her room holding her things and cried. I honestly haven't done that in a LONG time. June is harder than I thought, but I've been so busy I've barely had time to think about it. Thinking about you and Harper a lot this month.

Harper and Poohettes Grammie said...

my sweet girl,
The most important people will never forget your/our sweet Harper.
Your family & friends that love you so much are always here for you & Chris.
Harper may be gone, but she will never be forgotten, her spirit will live on forever,
I love you baby girl,

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