17 days or less...

As of today, we have at least 17 days until we get to meet our sweet girl.  I still do a double take when I look over at the lilypie ticker and see how far we have come.  I will be 39 weeks on September 12th and we will not go past that date, however we may be meeting her sooner than that, since at my last Dr appt we learned that the contractions I have been having, though irregular, have caused me to become 2cm dilated and 50% effaced...exciting and scary...is this really happening?!?  I hope she can hang out until the 12th but we feel confident that if she were to make an earlier entrance that she would be ok.  It is so exciting and surreal to think that we have just a little over two weeks until this part of our journey is over and a new one begins.  Even being this close, it is so hard to believe that it may actually happen.  I get giddy just thinking about the possibility of a happy ending.

I had the last of my progesterone shots this past Monday.  I actually got emotional after my nurse, who has taken such good care of me and my nerves, walked out my door that morning.  She kept calling it our finale visit and me a graduate.  It was cute.  I will miss seeing her every week but I am so excited to have reached this milestone, I will be 37 weeks (FULL TERM!!!) this coming Monday and I never thought in a million years I would be saying that.   It feels good, really good.

We have been in full prep mode for Pooh Bear.  I had my second shower last Saturday thrown by my sweet friends at work, where I haven't actually worked since February, and we received so many thoughtful gifts.  They are a group of incredibly kind and generous ladies and it was so great seeing everyone and celebrating the upcoming arrival of our girl!

Between my two showers there was only a small handful of things that we actually had to go out and buy.  So, this week we got all the last minute things that we need, have washed clothes ( I love the way Dreft smells), organized the nursery and put things away.  All of this last minute nesting has been such a blessing but has stirred up many emotions in our house.  There were a lot of things that we had purchased or received as gifts for Harper that we never got around to washing, folding or putting away with care in a nursery that was initially prepared for her.  So as good (GREAT!!) as it feels to be prepping for Pooh, there is still plenty of grieving for all of things that we missed out on with her big sister.  The complexity of emotions is amazing to me, so happy and sad all at the same time but still so incredibly blessed.

17 days, sweet girl, but you can come on out if you are ready.  Your mommy and daddy can't wait to finally meet you an see your sweet face.  We love you so, so, so much.