Monday, December 13, 2010

Meeting Noah

I finally got to meet little Noah this weekend.  It was bittersweet.  To be around such a healthy, cute little guy simply amazes me.  I guess my perspective on how many healthy, living babies there actually are in the world is a little skewed.  How could it not be?

He is six weeks old with big blue eyes and just a cutie pie.  A sweet little miracle.

I am not going to lie, seeing him was hard, not as hard as I had anticipated but hard just the same.  Even still, I survived.  I actually laughed and had a good time.  I held him, looked into his eyes, kissed his head and smelled his sweet baby smell.  How I wish I could do those things with Harper -- I will always yearn for that and for her.  

8 comments:

Alissa said...

It's a huge step, sweetie. I'm so proud of you for taking that big step. Wishing you were able to do it with your sweet girl too...((hugs))

Tiffany said...

((hugs))

Allison said...

I am so glad that you got to meet Noah and that he is doing so well. You are so strong and brave. Your description of your time with him made my heart ache for your little Harper.
I am like you...the idea of a live and healthy baby seems so foreign. Another painful consequence of our losses. Sending you big supportive hugs! <3 <3 <3

Lisa said...

I can only imagine how hard that was. My neighbor is supposed to have her baby girl this week and I think I will try to go visit her after Christmas. I think it will be better that way, as opposed to seeing her walk down the street one day. It's a big step, and so very hard, but what isn't hard these days?

rebecca said...

That is such a big, courageous step and a truly compassionate, loving one to put aside your own feelings and pain for Noah and his family. Thinking of you and sending love your way ((hugs))

Jennifer said...

Glad you were able to take this big step with an open and loving heart. It's not an easy thing to do. But you did it and we're proud of you. Harper is surely smiling up above at her mommy and her cousin, Noah. <3 <3 <3

Katrina said...

I'm glad that you took that big step and met Noah. I'm really happy that you spent time with us over the weekend. Noah and I love you very much Aunt Rhi! Sending you and Harper lots of love.

Sheri said...

For me, the first time I held a baby was the hardest. I just kept thinking how unfair it was that he was alive and healthy and Olivia was buried and gone. But every time got and gets a little easier, and it gives me hope that I will be holding my own bundle some day.

Congrats on taking the first step!

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